Pazintach

Maybe, perhaps, she is an only child? Just some thoughts, when I was older I had penpals, for face to face interactions with people can be demanding and energy-consuming, but even a very introvert child did have social needs. So hidden behind an envelope, contact on my own term, seems to me like a good middle ground. I can also ignore them when I didn’t want to reply. I quite enjoyed the level of control that I had. But that was when I learned to write, and it’s not social media. The thought is, maybe there are some indirect ways that she can make friends.

The childhood me would stay at home all day, to the point adults gave me nicknames. I don’t know about your child, but when I was five, I enjoyed fiddle with/take apart things, watch insects or watch nature in general, and hiding in a corner imaging a world.

This reminds me of my childhood, where adults always tried to push you to social more. For them, a little child only wants to do things on their own has a problem. This need to be fixed. They always remind you of that.

For me, at kindergarten, I didn’t have a problem for playing alone. Annoying kids didn’t trouble me. It was the teachers that gave me trouble, for they always wanted to push me to social with others, even though I had a friend, for them that’s not enough. Sometimes I didn’t want to go there, because the first thing they wanted you to do, was to team with other children.

Late until school, I finally realized that it was those adults that wanted you to be sunshine and outgoing, to always expressing and talking, to smile more, to have lots of friends, otherwise you have a problem, are the ones who didn’t understand what introverts are. I’m not even autistic.

This, and adults can enjoy it too.

I read it when at school. At the time I thought it was obvious, of course we should have a scientific mindset. Modern societies are built on that, schools are teaching that, also lots of books and abundant educational TV shows that you can watch after school. So I gave the book away. I didn’t know society can regress.

My partner and I sometimes sparring and discuss on different scenarios. But those are just games and hypotheses. There are always advantages and disadvantages, prepared and not prepared, there can be ambushes that we don’t know how we died, a fight with the same weapon is not fair because all sorts of things. All in all, we don’t want to be caught in a fight. If have to, we want the information/power/instrument the opponent don’t know we have. And then, we might still die…

So I might want to keep the advantage that I thought I have, or my opponent thought I don’t have, as a secret. Maybe?

Luckily my parents acknowledged it long ago. And they have always been careful to not be wasteful. Public transportations, travel less and only by trains, less heating/cooling, recycle, collect rain water. They’ve done enough and sadly, there’s little else average people can do.