we’re so back (but i will be making a separate post for my circumstances)
Pretty awful. Work sucks and I had to put my cat down on Friday. She was my best friend. I was okay over the weekend but I am increasingly lonely and heartachey.
Grief comes in waves and you can never predict when one will hit. I lost my cat of 15 years a couple months ago and I still swear I hear his meow sometimes
I’m sorry for your loss. it will get easier, but i’m sure it doesn’t feel like that right now
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welcome! glad to have you here with us, i hope you enjoy your stay :)
Welcome! Keep on buzzin, we love new beeple 🐝
I’m proud of myself!!
These last two days I’ve been working on my digital wellbeing. Did some filtering on all my email accounts (i have about 7), and deleted 25-30% overall :D
It took a lot of willpower to actually revisit mails dating back to 2013. Fun trip to the past.
I had a roof leak about 5 years ago that cause a lot of damage in one of the bedrooms. I fixed the leak but it took a long time to save up to fix the room. Last month I finally had enough money to get it fixed.
On Sunday, tropical storm Hilary caused several roof leaks including over the same bedroom. The ceiling, wall and carpet that I just replaced is destroyed along with a good chunk of ceiling in the garage. I can tear out the drywall in the garage and leave it, but idk how I’m going to afford to fix the roof and the bedroom.
So my week started out with a lot of frustration.
ugh DUDE that is the WORST
Good, been messing around with writing a N64 style renderer with gfx in Rust. Tho I’m probably leaving Beehaw, there seems to be TERFs in here.
Report it to the moderators, they will shut those shits down. Beehaw is one of the more accepting communities I’ve come across especially with the mods - as someone else mentioned it could be other instances creeping in as well.
Few things are as fun as coding on a personal passion project.
I won a bid on a house, finally WON a bid, and signed the paperwork and house went into pending.
But then because the seller realtor made a “mistake” and they managed to get another bid before we could get attorney approval letters filled out. So suddenly another offer came through and the seller realtor had a responsibility “in the interest of fairness” to present this offer even though contracts were already signed. In the interest of fairness they gave us the opportunity to outbid this offer, but of course they wouldnt tell us what that offer was to get an opportunity to potentially match it or just give up.
And in 3 fun days I got the ups and downs of anticipation of getting an answer, the emotional high of finally winning a bid and getting a house, the hype from planning inspection dates and imaging where I can go from house and how I can make it my own, the excitement and joy in telling the people, then the dread of not knowing if I’ll be able to keep the house, and finally the anger and sadness from having this fucking shark take my house away right out of my hands.
I’m staying positive I know we’ll find something, but this market is killing me.
even though contracts were already signed
I don’t know what jurisdiction you’re in, and even though I’m a lawyer, I’m not your lawyer, and this isn’t legal advice, and I have never seen your contract,
buuut…
I would get some legal advice from a real estate or professional negligence lawyer in your jurisdiction if I were you. That situation has the stink of contract breach / negligent realtor all over it.
House buying is the absolute worst. I hate it so much…
You have to decide so much, on so little information and time. Hell you can spend longer researching a cheap kitchen appliance than a house.
Even when it’s all sorted it’s not really… not until you finally have the keys.
The only way I could be stay sane was shifting my way of thinking… eventually you will find your home and before long you’ll be making memories in it and will absolutely love your house. Every house you missed on was really a good thing in the end as it will lead you to that one house, your proper home.
Oh yeah, Im staying positive. I liked the area the house was in, and I think the house itself had a lot to offer, but it wasnt special and there are other houses. I’ll find something better in the meantime though I deeply dislike having to get back into the grind.
Going decently. What little there has been of my summer is nearly over.
Last week of work in my summer position which came off my practicum in the spring, and in September I start my second and final year in my program.
It’s going pretty well, started my new job this week after 3.5 months unemployed!
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Very weird. I keep doing things and not being quite sure who’s doing them. Having trouble not feeling super alone and isolated but also having trouble feeling like I’m me so it’s kinda better in a weird way? Very strange. … Kinda just wanted to tell somecritter about that, I guess 🤷♀
I hope it’s okay if I pretend to bee a beehawer for a sec <.< I figure I kinda am in spirit, so maybe it’s okay? Though lately Idunno if I’m me so who knows. wobbles awkwardly
I am having whatever the programming equivalent of the reverse Midas Touch is this week. PRs that break things despite extensive testing beforehand, PRs that somehow break the infrastructure due to some obscure bug on their end that requires lengthy calls to Azure support, being left with no choice but to craft janky regex-based solutions to people keeping their data in inconsistent formats, and oh my god as much as I love IntelliJ I wish it was a bit more reliable about warning me when the config has a typo because our app does not start in a hurry.
I’m sure the programming gods will favour me a little more next week, but it is only Tuesday!
I have Baldur’s Gate 3 brain rot. I can’t stop looking at Astarion fan art.
My roomie wants to try living alone and our lease ends in a couple months. I’m really tired of paying my landlord’s mortgage so I’m considering buying a decent looking prefab for 120k. I’m 28 and haven’t even bought a car much less a house. But I can’t stand renting and burning another 70k. It’s ridiculous.
Ready to kill myself.
I’m tired of struggling everyday for shit that doesn’t seem to matter in a world that is on fire with people who hate me.
It is of great comfort to me to remember that most people are completely indifferent to me.
But for my part I hope you find some light in your life
I, for one, am eager to read of your comeback. I’m hopeful for you.
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Ooof, I’m not doing well. My disabilities and chronic illnesses and chronic pain are flaring up in all kinds of ways and I had to overdraft my bank account by $20 to afford my medication and I don’t know how the hell I’m going to get the money to dig out of that hole since I can’t work due to the aforementioned disabilities. & Then on top of that I have no idea how I’m going to be able to afford my medication next week.
I had a friend helping me but they lost their job so I’m on my own. Everything is so damn expensive and DEAR GOD HELP ME I’M DROWNING 😭
Our air conditioner is broken and I’m super heat sensitive which is making the pain and other symptoms worse. In really stressed about that and the money and I don’t know what to do. I don’t have anything I can sell. I’m FUCKED. OhgodohgodohgodfuckfuckFUCK
















